Meno-pause this train, I want to get off

Heard of the expression "TMI"?  Meaning, "too much information".  That's me, always bordering on TMI and sometimes putting my toe downright over the line.  Forgive me, but trying to keep it real pushes me to be honest.

Women...we got issues, don't we?  Eve really brought the curse upon us when she grabbed that apple and took a bite. Pain in childbirth?   Humph...try every month for  practically all of your  life and then let's top it off with the grand party hoo haa  of all time...called menopause.

Meno-pause your life and go crazy.

Meno- pause for a time of prayer.

Meno-pause this train, I want to get off.

I, like many of you would battle the occasional "moodiness".  The dark days when you just didn't feel like yourself and you hide in your room trying to avoid any nuclear fallout from your weary condition. My husband, Phil, used to look surprised at what I would say during those rather dark, cloudy moments and I would proudly explain, "I feel this way all the time, it's just when I have PMS that I have the guts to say it!!" He failed to see the humor in it. Can't say that I blame him.

I wrestle with the idea that hormones can control the way my day goes.  How crazy is it that those little rascals can define how I react to any given moment of my day.  Hormones have too much power!! I say we TAKE BACK THE POWER!  This is the moment in my thinking where I imagined myself as a warrior in a kilt and war paint, with staff in hand.  I dart into the crowd, rush on the battle field, bashing all of those little hormones... i digress. Remember the explanation of ADHD?  sorry.

But seriously, it's crap. Not sure how we are supposed to handle all of the stress of life when we have something always jumbling things up.  It's like trying to fold clothes...while INSIDE of the dryer...while it's RUNNING!

That is why I have to stay close to the only source of peace I have.  So grateful I have the Holy Spirit living inside of me.  If I'm this bad with him, I would be behind bars without him! He tells me to find rest in him.  He reminds me that this world is going to bring heartache and tribulation but that HE has overcome this world. He invites me to sit beside  him, lean on his shoulder and relax.  I think I will do just that.  Hoping he doesn't occasionally mind sitting in my hiding place with me.